I'm Embarrased.

Either that i have never been this embarrassed before, or I've not been put in such great position of responsibility over a society aspiring to be the society of the year.

For someone who keeps promoting Malaysia and our culture, i just took one great blow in front of a small crowd of leaders and friends.

I'm embarrassed, it might have been the childish side of those responsible or it could have been the alcohol or maybe even the exam stress.

Somehow i saw all eyes falling on those around me and then eventually onto me ending with a frown.

At such a grand event where the Vice Dean of the college was present, its really sad to see such things, never mind the crowd size.
Words spread, fast.

Its even harder when some of it is from those whom you're just so close to you cant say "No" or "enough".
Some may not be from your society, which makes it worse, you have No rights to say No.
I really thought you guys would understand your position and mine too...

I don't know about you guys, but certainly as president of a prestiged society, which has been built to this level thanks to all our efforts and our predecessors most importantly, this is just unacceptable.
Its ok to take, take as much as you want, but do it gracefully.

I'm sorry for not saying the right things. Actions i needed to take, i didn't. Which is my fault, my embarrassment was my own fault. I should have done something, not just sit and stare. I've learnt alot today... i hope you all will too.. that's all i hope for.

If you realise what I'm saying, then work harder with me to bring this society to greater heights and make up for this.

And to my predecessors and beloved members, I'm sorry for this.

This may be an over blown picture in your eyes, but to be one of the 13 ambassadors a society of 300 members, one that has one third of the student unions yearly financial budget, one that is highly respected by all other societies, one that was specially granted 25 seats for an event, one that can get whatever we wish from college done, to be of such a great society, its hard to take for me.. to be leading it, you imagine.

I'm Embarrassed.

PS: I'm a social drinker, but ever wondered why i don't drink in events of such? or at most just a glass or two? give it a thought.

PS2: Dashing over 10 metres to get 4 cans of beer and to dash back and stuff it in your bag, and give some to the ladies, and to do it a few times somemore, sorry i just dont find it cool, nor macho.

One Life, One Love, Enjoy Every Bit of it.